I have the attention span of a toddler and a memory span of a 90 year-old all conveniently (dis)arranged in a 17-year-old wreck of a soul. I am not a noun. I seem to be a verb, an evolutionary process, an integral function of the universe. I’m simply a human fill-in-the-blank.
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COUNTDOWN TO 2012
New Year means nothing more than a calendar running out of dates. No matter how hard we try and convince ourselves things will be different in an instant, they won’t be. January 1st isn’t a day of magic. It’s a day when you wish that the next 365 days are the best days of your life.
2011 has been one of the most “interesting” years that God has blessed me with. I won’t say it’s been the best year, but its certainly been a year with a lot of different twists and turns. I took on different responsibilities, I met a lot of amazing people, experienced a lot of memorable things, been faced with life-changing events but I can’t help but think that I did waste a lot of time, too much time for that matter. 2011 was a year that my independence was practiced, it was a year full of stress, self-questioning, embittered & eye-opening moments and over thinking but it is a year worth of maturity.
Time is passing by so fast it seems unreal and so I can not waste any more of this precious time. This made me realize that time spent with true, genuine and actual people made me realize how many bullshit people in my life can cut out and one single tiny mistake and everyone judges you. To get up in the morning and know you have to face another obstacle, takes determination. To smile when the only thing you want to do is cry, takes strength. To act happy when it’s the worst, takes courage. To be joyful when the only good news is the best of the worst, takes support. To be there and help people through the roughest times takes love.
I’m not the type of person to have a million resolutions and bail on them two days after the new year, so I won’t make a list, or I might because there are a handful of things that I do want to change though. I won’t mention them here, instead I’ll secretly look forward to 2012 and what it has to bring. Remember that everything takes time and everything does happen for a reason, good things come to those who wait, all things are better in moderation. Basically, in 2012 I just want to be happy and live in peace. Happiness is so relative, the thing I need to focus on the most is changing my idea of happiness to being content with what is really necessary.
Few hours from now, I will be starting my countdown until the welcome of 2012, a habit which I do as a routine yearly. But this time, it will be different, I feel like this coming 2012 will give me so much to conquer, may that be my fears, or amusing ones. I’ll take at least 5 minutes today and think about 2011. Think about my mistakes, my wasted opportunities, and those moments I wish I could delete or do all over again. Take them all and see where I went wrong and make sure that they don’t happen in 2012.
Life will never be easy. It will never be fair. Each of us have our own ways of struggling with our daily life. After the midnight celebration, everything will back to normal. No matter how tough things could be, never lose faith in yourself. You are better than you think. Don’t let problems defeat you. Whatever you do, don’t base permanent decisions off of temporary emotions. You’re making a huge mistake. In the end, it’s not all about pleasing others and putting on fake smiles everyday, it’s about doing what feels right to you and living your life the way you want to live it. No scripts to tell you what to do and not do. Just go with that gut feeling you get with all your decisions and roll with it. Screw all that bullshit people try to feed you, nothing but a waste of your time and existence.
I won’t be around this midnight to greet all of you so I’ll be saying my greetings now. HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone! I’ve always loved January 1st because it marked a new year, and a new year meant a new beginning. A new beginning meant a clean slate, and a clean slate meant an opportunity to start fresh. Hope you all take this opportunity as well to start anew. Don’t forget to pray and thank God for the year that has been and ask Him to guide you in the coming year. May He continuously shower His blessings upon all of you. I love you all! >:D<
